Self Worth

I couldn't accept the fact that things were not going to go my way. But when things don't go your way, you have to know that it's okay. What I'm going through is like painting a picture. When you paint reality, you can't just paint a bunch of random things, you're going to paint what you see, what is there. I mean you can, but it's not reality, and I guess in certain situations you can't paint your own reality. You have to accept things the way they are.

So I have accepted, or at least I slowly am. Although I still have these feelings floating in the air, I am trying my best to accept THIS reality. It's good to still have hope in something that could be real; it's important to not expect so much but to expect the worst. Unfortunately, I have high expectations in people. After seeing my cousins and girlfriends go through heartaches and endless nights of crying, my standard in a potential boyfriend has been going up, and when someone I care about does not reach up to that standard, I easily get disappointed- WHICH IS HORRIBLE!


Although I am still insecure, I have to be reminded of my self worth. I should be thinking highly of myself considering (not being cocky) that I have so many good qualities. Are you blind?! The only thing I can say is that, I am one of the rare fish in the sea. I guarantee the fisherman that has me hooked is going to be so lucky


Why should I put myself in so much sadness when I don't even need to be?! Like with friends, it's pointless wasting your time and energy on someone who doesn't do the same for you. If he can't even see what's right in front of him, then he's an idiot.

KNOW HOW MUCH YOU ARE "WORTH IT"

loving yourself is the key to learning how to love others and they loving you back.

A sense of hope

Hope is passion for what is possible.
-- Soren Kierkegaard.

Don't be afraid of the space between your dreams and reality. If you can dream it, you can make it so.
-- Belva Davis.

Optimism is the faith that leads to achievement. Nothing can be done without hope and confidence.
-- Helen Keller.

Optimism is the faith that leads to achievement. Nothing can be done without hope and confidence.
-- Helen Keller.

Even if happiness forgets you a little bit, never completely forget about it.
-- Jacques Prevert.

"To fall in love is awfully simple, but to fall out of love is simply awful."
Bess Myerson

giving up?

"should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements even if it leads nowhere"

Words that most of us can relate to. When should a person stop making an effort to pursue someone? It's a dilemma that I hate going through. The feeling of there being great potential but at the same time know that chasing pavements is going to lead nowhere but disappointment. What is the use of holding on and hoping if you know it's not going to work out?

It's so hard to accept the fact that nothing will ever happen. Is it desperation when someone is willing to be at the same presence with the person they like/love even if in the end it'll only make you more sad, more disappointed? What an awful feeling to put myself through, and yet I do it.

We like to make up excuses for the people who are JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU

The More I See You

"... the more I want you. Somehow this feeling just grows and grows. With every sigh I become more mad about you, more lost without, and so it goes. "



It's funny, how much you make me feel. It's to the point where my heart gets filled with butterflies not at the sight of you, when someone mentions you. (creepy ahha ) My heart starts racing and it just can't stop. And when I don't see you, it's like I'm locking up all my emotions and I just want to just let it all out. o_O if you had the slightest idea and if you had some kind of reciprocated feelings.. i would just.. feell so damn awesome.


i would say it like this.. but... SUBSITUDE LOVE FOR LIKE. AHAHAH

A Quote to Remember

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come! 2 Corinthians 5:17

WORK IT!

Ever since I was little I always had self-esteem issues. Even til this day, sometimes when I walk into a room, and I hear a group of people laughing, I immediately assume they're laughing at me. I scare myself into thinking that there is something wrong with me when there's nothing wrong. This happened to me last night: friends were laughing so hard, and when they looked at me they laughed louder. I felt embarassed FOR NO GOOD REASON. I ran into the restroom, and wondered what was wrong with me. Was there something on my face? Does my outfit look funny? I didn't find anything. I realized it was all in my head. I was tricking myself into thinking that they were laughing at me.


We have to learn to be our own best friends because we fall too easily into the trap of being our own worst enemies. ~Roderick Thorp, Rainbow Drive


Maybe it's all in what you believe to be true. If I believe that my outfit looks stupid WHEN I KNOW it looks BOMB (ahah) I'm going to "trap" myself into being my own worst enemy!

Even if they were intentionally laughing at me, there is nothing for me to embarrassed about. I just have to keep my head up high, and not care about what others think about me. The only thing they do is make me feel like shit, and WHY would I want to surround myself with those kinds of people?

So for you all who suffer from "non confidence" FOLLOW THESE STEPS.

1. Before making your entrance, take a deep breath. Run a hand through your hair, stand up straight, and slowly exhale.

2. When walking, walk swiftly but carefully. If you are going for I'm-in-a-rush kind of image, walk extremely fast. If you are going for I'm-in-no-hurry kind of image, walk with strong steps. Let the people drink you in.

3. Walk with posture. Nothing says, "I'm not confident" like slouching. Walk with shoulders high, waist not bent, and legs locked.

4. Smile! Frowning or looking timid will only draw more "non confidence" towards you. Smile at everyone you know or other friendly looking people.

5. Remember you have just as much right to walk around as any other person.





AND LOVE YOURSELF, BECAUSE YOU'RE THE SHIT!!!!

College Student

I am just a typical college student who doesn't know what she wants to do with her life? Unfortunately I am not one of those people who knew what she wanted to be when she was a little girl. I had dreams about a being famous musician, being a chef, being a doctor, a teacher... whatever. But RIGHT NOW I am having such a difficult time trying to figure out what I am called to become.

Our purpose on earth-when we choose a career- I believe, is to ultimately help others, to inspire others. My initial and obvious path is to become a doctor just like my parents. And it's hard when you have parents that have their heart set out on you becoming something you're not sure what you want to be.

I've been taking a Political Science class, and never in my life did I ever think learning about politics was so interesting! How our government works and how difficult it is to come up with an ideal government to please everyone. Maybe it was due to the shitty teacher I had in high school, but I have never been so excited about a class.

While my parents want me to be on the safe path which leads to becoming a doctor and a harp teacher that believes in my talents and thinks I can do so much more. i am sitting here wondering what I am called to be.

So what do I do? Do I want to become a child psychiatrist, a person who children can depend on and seek help, a musician who shares her talent, or can I become a ... I don't a lawyer that defends people? ahahah I don't know!

This sucks! I wish I could do everything, but I can't.

Alll I know is that no matter what I choose to do, I'll do my best, and I am going to be the best.

Now, which one do I pick?